Crushing Realizations

Questions circle my mind
Asking every cell in my body
Waiting for the right answer
So that a move can be made
To take the chance to make a change

Questioning my own sanity
The actions I have taken
If regrets are blooming from them
Will a chance be taken?
The will to recognize my dismay

This is just a handful
There are millions more that surface
The recent ones dealing with her
A girl who matches the gods
Looks grace talents and life all in one

When will I act?
What will be the outcome?
Will I forever be alone?
Depending on the outcome of the latter
Ah the hunting sounds of my mind

But the questions aren’t alone up there
Images of her hunt me as well
This crush is becoming too much
I’ve been so engulfed by her
That life itself has been forgotten

Oh god her smile
Drilling happiness into my spine
There is nothing more intoxicating
Yet I am still here questioning
Wondering if I should ask

I will eventually have the courage
But I will be too late to ask
The same way it has been all this time
She will once more be lusting for another
And I will forever be a shadow

So should I do it?
Should I let my heart continue to skip its beats?
If she wishes it so
That and much more will happen
Just so I can see her smile