Wide Open

I need to open my mind
Notice that life isnt mine
Things just wont be the same
It will just hunt my dreams
The shameful fact that we arent friends

I am afraid of this change
Afraid of not being close at all
To have to see you from afar
And be a shadow that admires your life
This is what my crush has become

It was the means to an end
it brought to my knowledge this theory
That I am a loser in this world
I am now waiting for a killer to come
To collect the dept of my actions

He visits me at night
To remind me that I was going to pay
Now he reminds me what went wrong
And shows me what I wanted to be with
This is the truth that came to me
After I opened my mind to you