Questioning Morals

Should I be glad?
Should I be sad?
Or Should I lie to myself
And make believe to be fine
What should I do?

I am not happy for myself
I am sad to be exact
But the smile on my face
Wants to hide was on my mind
Am I a fake?

I should be happy for others
I should be glad of their fortune?
I would be untrue to myself if I wasn’t
I would be no better then a demon
Yes I will be happy

I am still in pain
I am still not sane
But I will survive
I am a hydra
Immortality runs through my veins.